TOV means acts of loving kindness,
doing "good"
but it also means much more than just acts of loving kindness
or doing good
because Hebrew is a deep language
and the context around a word shades a word's meaning in situ
apparently if we read Genesis correctly
the entire reason for our existence
is to do TOV,
God makes us a speaking (generative) presence
created in his image
to carry out this TOV on the earth.
So if like Jesus I want to be a good Jew and do TOV in the world,
which is what "serving God" actually means,
what does that mean? what can I do?
Jesus said his only command is "love " (John 13)
which has been interpreted collectively as weak willed performance art,
a hippy dippy flower trip,
something so shallow self centered, full of Satan and tied to sexuality
that even Charlie Manson's girls were dead into LOVE...
whereas the reality is that what Jesus was commanding
was the hardest and most impossible thing we could possibly try to do.
TOV, good, kindness, love.... even when they are nailing you to a tree,
stoning you to death in the street, throwing you in the ovens.
Do TOV said Jesus regardless of what they do.
He also said if we enter a place
where the people are so immune to TOV that you can make no dent
you should shake the sand from your sandals and split, (Matthew 10)
further he told us only those who have endurance can accomplish this TOV doing
Other than that, he never offered any other solution or instruction.
No revolutionary plan, no practical guideline,
no government policies or social services,
no political or secular solution.
Just TOV. Go do TOV. And endure to the end.
So we go.
And there's the Ha Satan, (literally translates from Hebrew as THE ADVESARY)
Satan! our old friend, the author of almost everything we "love",
deeply woven into everything earthly surrounding us,
sympathy for the devil if you please...
We do sympathize, we love him, we don't even know we love him,
today more that ever he is an all encompassing presence in our daily lives
so fully integrated as to go unnoticed. Our silent partner.
Our groomer, our abuser.
Our "Love" is full of the Ha Satan.
How to do TOV then
when we have been groomed to be the lovers of Ha Satan
and are completely immersed in his world?
How to do TOV when we don't even know what TOV is?
You are surrounded in life by people that you "love"
and that ostensibly "love" you.
Husbands, wives, parents, children, brothers, sisters, friends.
They all say they love you
and they believe that they love you.
You say you love them, and believe you love them too.
Proof or expressions of that love
are largely tied up in appearances
and the acquisition of "things", emotional or material
which the lover and the loved each respectively perceive as "expected"
But that love is not the TOV, not the "love" that Jesus commanded us to do.
That love is full of the SELF, full of conditions and needs,
full of distorted expectations,
full of shit.
How to do TOV at all then,
as unwilling unconscious lovers of Ha Satan ourselves,
among the unwitting and willing lovers of Ha Satan
who will not thank us for our TOV
no, they will eat our TOV, spit it out in our faces
and then nail us to the nearest tree.
It's impossible.
But we have to try. It's the only direction we have been given.
We can not do it out of our own powers,
which is where the negating of self thing comes in.
It has to be done outside of ego, intellect and our own needs
therefore it has to be done by retracting our "selves" enough
to allow God's presence a path through to do it for us. (Isaiah 35)
Then it becomes easy....
"My Yoke is Light" (Matthew 11)
This is not my power,
this is the power of my God (Genesis 41)
The kabbalistic interpretation
of the begininng of the universe is called "Tzim Tzum"
It is a retraction.
The idea is that there is GOD and nothing else.
GOD retracts a portion of himself
in order to clear a space
for the existence of the universe
"The kingdom of heaven is within" (Luke 17)
Likewise
made in his image
we must retract a portion of ourselves in order to do TOV .
*TOV is pronounced with a long O.